Are you Willing to Pop my Love Cherry?

What will happen to the goodness of my heart and the way that I can love and let go because of my own insecurities i'm closing myself in and letting Depression get the best of me even if my caring and free spirit life is always in the way. Everyone has a sadness, I go outside every day waiting for the sun to beam down on me so I can get enough warmth in my body to not feel so cold on the inside. It hurts that we can take love and make it so narcissistic, what is wrong with my body i take no doctor drugs and i still feel numb. Is it sex that i need? or Is it unforgettable young innocent love that I missed and I need?. I will say that my life is beginning due to a strict background so i'm not that big on knowing the rules and consequences of loving life.